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i alwaes tell e truth to u, i make sure i dun lie to u. All i hope in return is e trust tt u can gif. But, is my approach wrong? Should i do e otherwise to get ur trust?

1 mistake of 4getting gt my dae turn bad? izzit onli urs? i tried to redeem myself by offering to go at once. but wat came out of ur mouth?

"i shouldn't have trust u. shouldn't had trust anyone. onli gettig my self into trouble."

I'm realli sorry is wat i can sae. nth much, u had rejected me.

I understand ur life is difficult esp. with this work u r holding on to. Wat abt us? i'm working while i'm studying. The thought of Pei Yun being tired will nt come to ur mind as often. Do u think tt i realli do nth in sch n can b tt energetic every dae, every time, anytime? When it's jux me pretending to be strong?

"Frens alwaes come 1st"
R u realli tt sure tt its my thought? Even my actions had prove tt statement wrong. Family n e family business is alwaes my 1st consideration. Or should i sae its e biggest obstruction in my life?
U may think tt i treat my fren better than any of e family member. yeah. perhaps i did. The reason is so simple cos i wanted to be treated this wae as i treat others. the biggest thing tt can cos sadness in me is my family. when tts e reason, frens will be e one by my side.

"Youngsters this dae is different from e past. Doesnt think for the family. Onli argue with reasons."
i beg to differ. If sister n me had realli been e youngster u said in e statement. this family is already gone long time ago. had it nt been e family ties. sister wouldn't have went back to work for u all after so much of e vicious cycle. *working for u all -> quarrel -> get a job outside -> when u all do nt haf enuff workers, get sister back agn* n e cycle jux goes on n on. u said its so difficult for sis to work, better let her go out n get a job. when u made this sentence, haf u thot abt e past? e vicious cycle tt i have been telling u? Hadn't it bcos of the thot tt both of u r working so hard, sister wouldn't have agreed to go back agn.

Hadn't it bcos of the thinking of e family, i wouldn't have work n study at e same time. Had it nt been e thinking, where would i be now? Striving for future? Taking up more courses? Or anything else, n nt stuck here.

U alwaes tell us ur burden, we tried to think in ur point of view, we tried our best to understand u. but have u ever put in e same amt of effort to understand us? who's my best buddy? what am i exactly studying now? what is my plan for e future? wat's my other plans? u'll nv noe. cos u didnt ask. u didnt bothered.

i envy sis when she can tok to u abt her problem. i tried but i think i shall avoid. Our thinking is 100 miles apart. we'll onli end up argueing. U will nv understand my thinking unless u put urself in my shoe. a 18th yr old gal wif a watever characteristics. Have this sentence crossed ur mind b4? maybe nt.

I learned love, care, concern, family warmth from this family. Either positive or negative side. n nt 4getting sacrifice.
I had sacrifice so many things. It made me feel worthwhile when there's a return by doing tt sacrifice. But at points of time, the return seems to short change making me wonder... is e sacrifice realli worth?

Life's unfair, a thorough round of suffering.