things are crushing down on me.. shld i accept this stress n live on unhappily? or shall i jux throw everything aside n doesnt bother abt anything.. there is this problem when u wanna be independent esp when u're someone who dun show out ur feelings often.. how many times i wish to cry but didnt manage to?
how many times have i wanted to pause everything in life for jux a few mins but i cant?
many times, ppl sae tt i cared too much in others problem. i agreed to it. but anyone thot abt tt when i react this wae is bcos i wan e action to be reciprocate too?
i alwaes tried my best to stand in others position to think abt e situation they r in, i hope to feel e wae they feel, i hope i can encourage them, i hope they can at least haf an accompaniment when they actually need 1, even if i'm onli jux sitting there quietly.
i definitely hope these action can be reciprocated but it jux nv happen.
how many times when i wanted someone to jux lend me a listening ear, i couldnt find 1.
how many times i wanted others to think for me in my position but i didnt get e support.
how many times i wanted to find someone to jux sit there beside me saying nth, jux simple sit beside me n i couldnt find any1.
is there really no one in this world who could do so?
things in life recently are already up to my neck, i realli dunnoe wat to do. n there is this issue my monsters brought up saying tt i'm not spending much time for the blog. it pretty hurt me in a wae. Ya, i admit its my mistake. i neglected e blog. i jux hope tt they could understand n tolerate more. but i oso noe 1 thing tt is hope n reality is far apart. it seems like 1 cant afford to do a slightest mistake or u'll get some crude remarks.
its true tt frens gt to be more frank n direct with each other, but rmb this pt tt we all r human. consider others' feelings or wat they will think after ur remarks is made.
i noe u all for long n i noe u all gd enuff. it is ur characteristic to be frank n direct but i oso noe u gd enuff to spot ur sarcasm.. in frenship, sarcasm is e most imbearable thing n it hurts e most.